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Amber D. Badger

Lighthouse

Song Lyrics

I tried too hard to find liberty
But instead I found myself staring at the sea
In a boat, the storm comes and I say

“Help me. I’m drowning.”
You come without a word, just rescue me
I tried so hard to tell you by now
When I try to break these chains I’m filled with doubt
They hold me underwater thinking I could breathe
You came without a word, you rescued me


Pre-Chorus
Oh, I wanna talk to you
Oh, I wanna say thank you

 

Chorus
I’m scared and alone
The night it comes
But you were my lighthouse
I drowned, you helped me
Gave me your hand as I bleed
You were my lighthouse 
You showed me the way to the shore

Verse
I tried so hard to hide in the house
It was in the forest, shattered windows of course
The flood it broke right through the door I locked
You come without a word, just rescue me
I tried so hard to tell you by now
When I try to break these chains I’m filled with doubt
They hold me underwater thinking I could breathe
Why did I let them in so foolishly


Repeat Pre Chorus & Chorus
 

Bridge
The storm it came left me helpless
The chains they came, tried to hold me down
You came in so unannounced 
You decided to be a lighthouse
You were the captain of another ship
I was the mermaid, who tried to swim
The storm it caught me when I didn’t expect it to
But you came when I didn’t expect you

 

Repeat Chorus
 

Outro
I tried so hard to find liberty
But then you came along, you set me free

Battle

I remember the very first day

Thought you could mold me like I’m clay

Told me to shut up when I spoke

I felt so alone

Still have the bruise you gave to me

Wore my scars on your wall like a victory

I still panic when your name comes up

Look what you’ve done

 

Chorus

And this battle that I lost

You got it in my mind I’m not good enough

You conditioned me to say sorry

Baby this is me

This is me fighting

Don’t try to find me now

Look there’s the door I’ll show you out

There’s a new guy in my life now

I’m praying to God he won’t be like you

I’m praying that one day I could let him in

 

Verse

I still remember the following week

So torn up all I could ever think

Was what you did to me

Still remember seeing you with your friends

Insisted you and I never spoke

You only knew me when we were alone

The nightmares still come

I guess you won

Repeat Chorus

 

Verse

Sticks and stones may break my bones

What you did to me was like a sword through a paper

Sticks and Stones may break my bones

Why am I so afraid this new guy will be a repeat

Stick and stones may break my bones

What you did to me was like a sword through a paper

Honestly I’m so afraid this new guy

will be a repeat and hurt me

 

Chorus 2

And this battle that he won

Couldn’t fight back look what I become

He conditioned me to say sorry 

Baby this is me

This is me fighting

Don’t try to find me now

Look there’s the door I’ll show you out

There’s a new guy in my life now

I’m praying to God he won’t be like you

I’m praying that one day I could let him in

Liberty

I'm burning every bridge that I tried to build

So they don't get to me

They made me the monster I became,

Then decided to blame me

People love to hurt that ones that don't say a word

Sadly I'm not the only girl

I met a guy I'm praying so hard

He won't end up like them

 

Chorus

I'm so tired of wanting to break free

Am I a traitor for wanting to find my liberty

They burnt the forest down

cause they want to burn the witch

The demons yell cause they want to see you drown

I'm so tired of wanting to break free

Am I a traitor for wanting to find my liberty

 

Verse

I'm cutting all the strings when I get too attached

Darling don't get close to me

You saw all my faults and all of my scars

So why won't you just leave

People love the ones who won't say a word

Sadly I'm not the only girl

People love to burn the ones who've been burned before

Darling I don't need saving

Repeat Chorus

Bridge

Sticks and stones, they may break my bones 

They tried so hard to destroy me

Run now, run while you can

Don't feel bad leaving me

Sticks and stones, they may break my bones

They tried so hard to destroy me

Run now, run while you can

I don't want you to see what's underneath

Repeat Chorus

 

Outro

Am I really a monster

Is that why no one stays

They tried to burn the witch

But burned themselves instead

Glass smile, pretty face

Yet no one really cared

Trying to find my liberty

I want to find my liberty